doomed?

have you ever heard the saying that there is a purpose to life... a reason to exist, so basically I’m alive because someone out there needs me... I realise that thou i may not know this person, or what they need, or the impact this person would have on life, this does not matter to me, all i know is, i hate this person with every fibre of my being... whoever this person(s) is i hate them! because of them i am forced to live a life of eternal damnation